Wednesday, September 21, 2011

41 weeks - 1 week

I have been MIA lately and I do apologize, but assure you that it has been for good reason ;o)

Clearly my due date has come and gone, so I imagine that questions have risen regarding the status of our little Owen...

I am so proud to report that Owen Richard finally made his grand entrance (right on schedule) on Wednesday September 14th, 2011 at 11:09am! He weighed 8lbs 9oz and was a whopping 21.25 inches long (he's one lean little man, so all of that weight is in his height).

Before we get into the nitty gritty, I of course need to formally introduce you all to my Owen



Side note: this post is being made on Wednesday September 21st at 11:09am, exactly one week from the moment that Owen entered the world :o) My little man is one week old already and I can hardly believe it. Bryan says my hormones are clearly still unstable, but I've been an emotional mess just thinking about the fact that Owen's first week of life has already come and gone *tear* It's been such an amazing week, I'm just a little sad to see it go. But am so looking forward to these next moments in our lives together.

His grand entrance wasn't (of course) without it's trials and tribulations. So I will forewarn you all that this next section will not only be lengthy, but will probably contain some adult rated material that won't be for the fainthearted - so read on at your own risk :o)

It all started at my 39 week appointment (where I was actually 38w5d): my blood pressure was continuing to slowly climb the charts, even despite my increasing medication dosage. So the doc and I began discussing our options for getting Owen out and into the world as safely as possible. This conversation resulted in a trip over to labor and delivery for monitoring, which of course led to being sent home after 3 hours of NST and blood work that ultimately indicated Owen was doing fine and there was therefore no reason to take drastic measures... yet. They didn't, however, let me leave without scheduling a followup monitoring session for that following Friday.

So we made it through the week, my last week of work (whew) and went back to L&D for our followup session at 39w2d. My blood pressure was (as per the usual) still climbing and the decision was made to start labor induction and get Owen out, before any complications had the opportunity to present themselves. Unfortunately, L&D was super busy on that particular day - I'm not sure if it was the impending full moon, or just our poor luck, but they were sWaMpEd! Our hospital's L&D has 3 triage rooms, one of which we were lucky enough to get, and they were all full. So full, in fact, that there was a poor girl waiting to get in who was laboring in the hallway! They had to keep walking her into the bathroom to check her over and get stats on her baby - I felt so bad, she was clearly in pain. They also conducted an epidural on the woman in the room next to us. It was so busy and things were so crazy, that I managed to hear the anesthesiologist say they don't usually do epidurals in the triage rooms but he clearly didn't have a choice :::insert panicked face:::

We waited... we waited... oh yea, and we waited some more... we waited for over 5 hours, only to finally be told that my doc had changed her mind (she was the on call OB in L&D that day) and they were just too busy at the moment to induce me at that time. Let me clarify - it was determined that there was no immediate danger to Owen, so deciding not to induce at that exact moment was not a poor decision on my physicians part and I do see that now. But you can only imagine how insanely frustrating this was to very pregnant and unfed (they wont let you eat once you've been admitted to L&D) pregnant lady. I was literally in tears as we walked out of the hospital. I was so ready to meet our little guy and promised (albeit only momentarily... well, hourly really) that it would be happening soon, so having promise revoked was just pure torture. But home we went and I tried my hardest to pull myself together.

We made it through the weekend and I went to my regularly scheduled appointment on Monday morning, where (of course) my blood pressure will still high. Quickly approaching full-term, our due date, 40 weeks, etc. etc. etc. we decided to formally schedule labor induction for that evening. I was told to go home and get everything in order (it's sort of nice when you know the fairly closely estimated day and time of your baby's delivery - makes getting ready a lot easier lol), and then to call the hospital at 6:30pm to see if they had the means to admit me for induction that evening. I was honestly nervous to make the call - after our experience(s) the previous week, I didn't want to get my hopes up again only to have them crushed. Luckily, that's not how things went down and we were told to come to L&D at 7:30pm to get things rolling! I breathed a HUGE sigh of relief and then tried to mentally prepare myself for what was about to happen... we were having a baby! We finished packing our hospital bag, fed and cleaned our pets, settled the house, and were on our way!

We registered with L&D and then were shown to our birthing suite:




I seriously love our hospital - it's fairly new (remodeled within the last 5 years) and the maternity ward is just gorgeous! It's completely separate and isolated from the rest of the hospital. The rooms are all birthing suites with private bathrooms and jacuzzi tubs - labor, delivery and recovery and all done in the same fabulous room (no more room sharing or hopping).

Anyway...

We got settled into our room and waited for the nurse to check me in, take my vitals, etc. And then for the doctor to come in and start the Cervadil to hopefully begin ripening my cervix (since we were still barely at 2cm, as we'd been for the past couple weeks). Once everything was setup, we took a deep breath and tried to get some sleep for the night.

The next day - Tuesday - I was checked for progress and had only managed to dilate to barely 3cm (ha, my body hates me). But it was enough to get started with the Pitocin and hopefully bring on some contractions to do the rest of the work. We started out with a low dose and slowly worked our way up throughout the rest of the day and through the night. This was nice because I didn't get slammed with full fledged contractions, and was able to slowly build up a pain tolerance just like with natural labor. We did, however, get to the point where I just needed some sleep and relief from the contractions. So later that night we ordered an Epidural, which wasn't as bad as I had imagined. The actual administration of it was fine, it was the sensation of not being able to feel my legs that I wasn't thrilled with lol I never liked that sensation (even when it was just my limbs "falling asleep" naturally throughout life) and this was just a concentration one-thousand times worse. No less, it did take the edge off and I was able to get some sleep. But only for a couple hours, as the Epidural quickly began to wear off. I had to call the nurses and they sent out for yet another Epidural, thinking that the first one just didn't take for some reason. So they did yet another Epidural and that one seemed to do the trick (thank goodness).

So we continued to relax and labor throughout the night and into the next day - Wednesday. We were eventually checked again and had made it to almost 6cm (slow and steady wins the race, right?). So we continued with the increasing Pitocin drip, until we reached 32mi and had finally managed to make it to almost 10cm (yay!!!). It only took 39 hours *sigh* During this check, was when we realized that little Owen was presenting face first :o( Not an impossible feat, but definitely not ideal for a vaginal birth. The physician on call gave me the option to give it a go vaginally and see what we can do, or just to go straight for the c-section. I really wanted to try for a vaginal birth, so we made the decision to push for an hour and see where that got us. At around 9am on Wednesday September 14th, 2011 we began pushing. Unfortunately it just was not meant to be and after an hour of pushing with no progress (he never made it post -2 station) we made the call to deliver via c-section. I had made peace with the decision and knew it was the best thing for Owen - his face was so smushed up in there, beating against my pelvic bone, I didn't want to stress him out anymore. We prepped for the OR and were wheeled down the hall for our procedure within minutes.

The rest is a real blur for me personally - they gave me a Spinal Tap on top of my second Epidural, because they were concerned about me feeling things (thank you!). So I was completely paralyzed from the ribs down, which is one of the oddest sensations I have yet to experience. But it did the trick and I didn't feel a thing. They also gave me a dose of medicine to help with digestion during the anesthesia, unfortunately it made me nauseous and I ended up getting sick on the operating table (that was fun :::insert sarcasm here:::). But the best thing by far - and the one thing I hope to always remember - was the first time I heard him cry :o) Since I couldn't see anything, that cry was all that I had to let me know that he was here and ok - the best sound in the world. At that point they called Bryan over to cut his umbilical cord and take pictures of him being weighed, foot printed, and cleaned up. Laying there alone while they got him situated and me closed up was a confusing moment emotionally - I was sad, lonely, stressed and frustrated, but I was also happy, elated, anxious and excited to finally meet the little guy. I couldn't see him or Bryan (which I was kind of upset about), but I could see my mom in the observation window and she was signaling to me that he was doing well.

As soon as he was stable they let Bryan bring him over to me :o)

 
You can see even in this picture, how swollen, bruised and beat up his poor face was :o(

After they got me stitched up, they placed him in my arms for the ride back to our room. Once we were parked, they got him latched for his first feeding and he caught on like a champ! We were given an hour of family time, just the three of us, before any visitors were allowed back. This is all still a little blurry for me too, but Bryan does a good job filling in the gaps.

Soon after my parents came back to meet Owen





Of course with a c-section we had to spend another 3 days in the hospital, so we were there for a total of 6 days between both the induction and the c-section. The whole experience was just a whirlwind. But he's here now and we are sooooooooooo in love with this little man :o)



Today Owen is 1 week old and things are going well. We're settling into a routine, trying to find our groove. Lucky for us, Bryan was able to get an additional week off from work (since we spent a whole one just in the hospital) and so now we have two more weeks together as a family :o)

 Welcome to the world and our family Owie :o)

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

39 weeks

Please excuse, what may seem like, my excessive whining in the following post. I try my hardest to maintain a positive attitude, especially with regards to this pregnancy, but I feel it's important to get some true feelings out there. For anyone going through something similar, please know that you are not alone and that your feelings are perfectly normal.

This weeks' weight gain/loss: +3lbs

Total weight gain/loss: +10lbs

Size of Baby: We're officially a watermelon!!! The last fruit!!!

Biggest challenges: Getting comfortable and staying calm.

Cravings: I've officially lost interest in food again and the short gag reflex is back :o(

Gender: it's a BOY!!! Owen Richard W*****

Movement: Lots of big and dramatic movements - he's definitely getting low on space!

Sleep: We're still on the futon, but we're getting used to it. Now that I'm out of work, I get to sleep in and that's really helping with getting quality rest.

What I Miss: Still my feet and ankles, but now I'm adding my hands to that list as well :o( My worsening carpal tunnel is killing me :o( I wake up each morning and can barely bend my fingers - they used to get somewhat better throughout the day, but now they just hurt all day long. I can't do anything anymore - put on my bra, write, type, grab things, etc.

Emotions: Discouraged, frustrated, and upset *sigh* I wish so much that those weren't my feelings right now - I wanted so badly and waited so long for this pregnancy. But as we reach the end here, I am finding myself tired and uncomfortable :o( My newly developed and ever worsening carpal tunnel is killing me! I wake up in so much pain every morning and can pretty much do nothing with my hands at this point. And that's on top of my other regular symptoms - high BP, swelling, headaches, lower back pain, etc. Adding salt to the wound, we're not making any progress either :o( No contractions, no dilation, no dropping, nothing :o( I know that means nothing and things can change in an instant, but it's hard not to let that get to you.

Best moment this week: Trying to enjoy the last moments of being pregnant...

Any baby related purchases: Got a new cool wall clock for Owen's nursery (will post pics soon) and we LoVe it!!!

Milestones: One more week until EDD!!!

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

38 weeks

This weeks' weight gain/loss: +2lbs

Total weight gain/loss: +7lbs

Size of Baby: We're officially a watermelon!!! The last fruit!!!

Biggest challenges: Everything is a challenge at this point lol I'm getting large and uncomfortable, which makes doing everyday things very difficult - sitting down, getting up, sleeping, picking things up, moving around, standing for long periods of time, etc. etc. etc.

Cravings: Getting this child out lol no, but seriously... I honestly am not really into food right now, I'm simply eating because I know that I have to at this point. I am much more focused on tying up the last minute loose ends at work in preparation for my leave, and nesting.

Gender: it's a BOY!!! Owen Richard W*****

Movement: We had an NST yesterday, and Owen did not like that one bit. He was bouncing all over the place during the test and then continued to do so for the rest of the day after that. So apparently he has not completely run out of room in there yet!

Sleep: We've officially moved out of the nursery and onto the futon in the spare bedroom *sigh* It's a less than ideal situation, but we're making it work. I'm just happy to have the nursery completely done and ready to go. But working from home and getting to sleep in most mornings, is really helping to keep me rested for the most part.

What I Miss: I am starting to think it will always be my feet and ankles lol I am soooooooo over swelling and looking like a stuffed sausage! I want to see my feet again, the feet that I know actually belong to me and not ones that I have to do a double take on.

Emotions: I'm getting stressed out over our remodel (which still isn't done - grrrrrrrr) and trying to keep things in check because of it. I just want our room done and us moved into it - my house is a wreck and that's really putting a damper on my nesting urges lately.

Best moment this week: Finally completely finishing the nursery!!! 

Any baby related purchases: I think we're pretty much set at this point.

Milestones: 2 more weeks!!!

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

37 weeks - Full Term!!!

This weeks' weight gain/loss: +1lbs

Total weight gain/loss: +5lbs

Size of Baby: We're officially a watermelon!!! The last fruit!!!

Biggest challenges: Bending over is pretty much out of the question at this point lol Bryan has to do a lot of the floor level stuff for me. I've resorted strictly to flip flops now (not that I could tie a tennis shoe around my inflated feet at this point anyway) and some interesting contortion moves to get pants on lol

Cravings: I finally had my Mexican fix and boy was it gooooood :o) Nice and spicy, hopefully that will give Owen some incentive to make his appearance soon. Other than that, I would really love a turkey sub from Subway lol and that's now my first request for food once he's out. 

Gender: it's a BOY!!! Owen Richard W*****

Movement: I can definitely tell that he's running out of room in there - movements have turned into these dramatic turning motions, as opposed to the old kicks and punches. I'm waiting to feel him drop into my pelvis and was told that movements would change again once that happens.

Sleep: Still slightly better this week than it has been the past month or so. I continue to toss and turn from one side to the other, but there is more actual sleep being had lately. Hopefully that is in preparation for Owen to finally be here!

What I Miss: I am starting to think it will always be my feet and ankles lol I am soooooooo over swelling and looking like a stuffed sausage! I want to see my feet again, the feet that I know actually belong to me and not ones that I have to do a double take on.

Emotions: I've actually been ok this week - no major freak outs or melt downs. I don't think that it's all actually hit me yet, and I'm honestly not sure when it will. Right now, we're trying all of the labor inducing techniques that we can and so I think that's given me something to focus on.

Best moment this week: Officially full term!!! And I've finished washing all of Owen's laundry, so there's really not a ton left for me to do in the way of getting ready for him. 

Any baby related purchases: Went to Babies R Us to use our completion coupon and got the last few things we needed - bottles, safety gates, toys, etc. Other than that, no - we are pretty much done in the baby related purchases department. At this point we really have everything that we need (and then some) for him.

Milestones: Full term!!!

Thursday, August 18, 2011

He Flipped!

We had our follow-up ultrasound yesterday, after the doc heard that he was breech or transverse, and I am happy to report that Owen has flipped into the head down position on his own!!! I was honestly surprised, I could have sworn he was still breech based on where I thought I was feeling movement. But he's officially head down and ready to go!

However, my doc warned me that we're not out of the woods yet. Apparently because he did flip so late, that means that he still has some room in there, which means that he could flip again. So she would like to continue with monitoring via ultrasound until the end, just to be sure that he doesn't decide to turn himself around again. She also told me that when I do go into labor and head to L&D, to let them know that he just recently flipped and to request an ultrasound at the hospital so that we can be sure he didn't flip back to breech. She doesn't want me going through hours of labor, only to find out that he did flip again and will end up needing an emergency c-section anyway (thanks doc!).

So right now, we're in good shape!

Unfortunately, as of this morning I am not dilated at all :o( My cervix is nice and soft, so we're on our way, but not quite making any progress just yet. I will admit that I was hoping for a little something, but oh well... there's always next week, right?! ;o)

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

36 weeks

This weeks' weight gain/loss: +1lbs

Total weight gain/loss: +4lbs

Size of Baby: Last week as a honeydew! Only one more fruit left to go!

Biggest challenges: Getting comfortable anytime of the day and in any position - nothing feels good or even ok anymore. Sleeping is of course still an ongoing battle, but now the daytime hours bring their own challenges.

Cravings: As I mentioned last week, I have been in the mood for Mexican (spicy foods - sign of labor, right? ;o). And we have plans to go to a new Mexican restaurant this Friday with our group of friends, so I'm hoping that satisfies my craving.

Gender: it's a BOY!!! Owen Richard W*****

Movement: Very active little man this week and I am loving it! Although I am pretty sure he's still sitting breech/transverse, because I can still feel his movements on the sides of my belly *sigh*

Sleep: Still slightly better this week than it has been the past month or so. I continue to toss and turn from one side to the other, but there is more actual sleep being had lately. Hopefully that is in preparation for Owen to finally be here!

What I Miss: I am starting to think it will always be my feet and ankles lol I am soooooooo over swelling and looking like a stuffed sausage! I want to see my feet again, the feet that I know actually belong to me and not ones that I have to do a double take on.

Emotions: Slowly getting a little rocky, as I get more and more uncomfortable. But again, I am trying my best to keep things in check. I am really trying to stay positive and grateful for everything, no matter what.

Best moment this week: We had our second shower this weekend and it was wonderful. My mother-in-law did a fabulous job throwing us a Hey Diddle Diddle nursery rhyme themed shower. So many wonderful family and friends came out to welcome Owen. And again, we are so blessed and lucky - Owen got some great stuff! 

Any baby related purchases: TONS of stuff from our second shower and then we went to do our registry completion, which thanks to our amazing family and friends didn't leave us much more that needed to be bought - lots of little things, we only spent about $150 to get the rest of his stuff. We also had a few duplicate returns and some cash gifts, that we used to purchase our last big ticket item the swing!

Milestones: Next week we are full term!!!

Monday, August 15, 2011

Shower #2

Owen had another amazing shower this past weekend :o)

He is so loved and we are so blessed with the best family and friends!

Bryan's mom threw us a beautiful Hey Diddle Diddle nursery rhyme themed shower this past Saturday - she really outdid herself, it was gorgeous! She was very adamant about doing everything herself and now I can see why - she had a vision and she went alllllllllllllll out with it! Every little detail was on theme and so friggin cute!





Everything was just wonderful, she did an absolutely amazing job!

And of course Owen was completely spoiled yet again - I still cannot believe how much stuff he has already! Now that our showers are over, I was going through our list to try and figure out what we even still need before he arrives and let me tell you, that list is minimal. We are so lucky!